Last year at this time, I already knew what I was going to be for Halloween. I was already set on being Harley Quinn as my boyfriend was being the Joker. As this was a group thing, we had a Joker, Harley, Batsy, Rachel, and a maid… for the sake of keeping with the pattern, female Alfred. XP But this year the plan I thought we had was 1) apparently never a real plan, just a conversation that they had once, and 2) abandoned as soon as I went to Otakon this year.

Otakon. Is. AMAZING. It’s like my perfect place! Hundreds of people dressed up in so many different costumes, tons I knew and even more that I didn’t! It was beautiful… And I went two out of the three days it was there.

Around the second day, while I was alone(meaning none of my friends were with me, there is no “alone” at Otakon) in the art room, I decided I was being too single minded. I was only looking at pictures of animes I knew, only taking pictures of cosplayers whose costumes I knew and were really good. I found myself low on money and only focused on taking pictures of good cosplayers. One Alucard in particular who, sadly, escaped me, was the focus of at least an hour of wandering. Of course I had to stop and take pictures of others as well, but once I realized I was wasting my time on this one thing, it kinda killed my good mood. So I said to myself “Do something else damn it! Do something that has nothing to do with anything you know!” So I did. I went back to the art room, and bought a picture of a very cute looking anime guy in a black suit with devilish eyes and dark long-ish hair. Not a big thing, but it was new, and soon after I found my Lili-sama and we went to the dealers room, full of costumes for sale, weapons that could only be out of an anime, and lots of manga and cat ears and anything else an otaku would ever want… I could have died happy there… But anyway, as we wandered we came across a table with little cards with animes on them, and I saw one with the character I’d bought on it. I asked Lili who it was and she said his name was Sebastian, and that he was a butler from a manga and anime called Kuroshitsuji. He was apparently in love with his young master who was an earl. Yep, count on me to pick out of a million anime characters the hot gay guy. ^_^

After losing my phone, using Lili’s phone to find it, and carrying her purse in return for a while, we split up and I walked around with Manda, dressed as Matt from Death Note. At the time I was Bellandy, just so you know (see Gallery for picture). We wandered for what must have been an hour at least, me now mostly out of money and only looking for more cosplayers to take a picture of. After trying to find an amazing Kaname Kuran (I did find him eventually, see Gallery) we got rather tired and sat down at a wall at the back. Right next to us was a group of people, obviously in a group the way they were, and one I recognized as Sebastian. I believe in signs, so I was completely convinced that this anime was following me. Coincidences are just too normal, this had to be fate of some sort. However, I was once again single minded and tired of losing good cosplays of people I knew, so I was only looking for the Kaname. Plus, I didn’t know who the hell the other people with Sebastian were, nor did I have the sense at the time to think “I’ll take a picture and look them up when I got home” Now that I know the characters and think back on it, those were really amazing Sebastian, Ciel, Madame Red, and Grell costumes and I really wish I could go back and take a picture. If anyone went this year and got a picture of this group, please tell me! So, anyway, we left this photo opportunity to keep walking.

Much later, when we went to the masquerade (a bunch of skits done by cosplayers) and my phone was both out of pictures and dead besides, I became totally convinced I was supposed to find this anime, I was supposed to read it, watch it, be a fan. First was a slight yaoi scene between Sebastian and Ciel, which I found amazing simply because it was yaoi. From this skit, I deduced that Kuroshitsuji was about a young boy earl who had to deal with spooky mysteries and had an amazing butler who helped and occasionally messed him up (not in a perverted way) just for fun. The very next skit, the one just before we left to catch a train back, was a dance. Madame Red and Grell waltzing. Had I known of this anime before, this would have been much more amazing than I thought at the time, but as it was, all I deduced was that Ciel had an aunt who liked red a lot and had a butler who was in love with Sebastian. My only confusion was that this was a girl butler… weren’t girls usually maids? Ah well, it was cute and made me all the more want to find this anime asap! So after being yelled at by Lili for being late (totally worth it by the way) I sat on the train and prayed my dad would let me get on the computer that night so I could look it up. He didn’t, but I got to the library the next day immediately searched Kuroshitsuji on Wiki. There I learned Sebastian and Ciel do indeed like to see each other screw up, but also that Sebastian was a demon butler stuck to Ciel in a contract! Neat! Next was Grell. I actually looked him up on deviantart first, and imagine my surprise when I found a picture that said he was a guy… Lies! Wiki said it too. Oh. Suh-weet! Even more yaoi! And this one was not just a normal person either: he was a shinigami, a death god! A cute one too… pardon my apparent fetish for anime guys, but he fits all my favorite things: funny, long hair, glasses, somewhere between good and evil, and on top of all that wonderfulness he was part of a yaoi pairing! Win! Despite the fact that I hadn’t even begun to read the manga or watch the anime, he became my favorite character.

When I did start reading it online (onemanga.com! Whoo!) I wondered where he was till he showed up (as a normal looking butler, still a cutie though) and was sad when he left. When I finally found a site that would play at least little bits of episodes, I was thrilled to find he was even more in the anime! And wore a dress and sang in one episode… *fangirl melts* As I am now further into the series, I’m a bit less focused on him, but he’s still my favorite. I refuse to read and Sebby/Ciel stories, only Sebby/Grell (and Grell/Undertaker when I can find them) and the fact that Grell is just about the gayest thing on two feet does not bother me at all! ^_^

This rant really is going somewhere and if you remember anything I said a the beginning of it, you’ll see just where. Yep: I have decided to be Grell this year! And not only for Halloween, but also for Otakon next year! However, my outfits will still be different if circumstances will allow. For Halloween I’ll wear his usual outfit with the red coat and black pants and such. Simple enough, I just need a black or brown vest and red coat (in addition to the long red wig and red glasses I’ll need for both things) and that wont be too bad as I could probably just buy a cheap Alucard costume and call it good. ^^ However, the one I want to wear for Otakon shall be much harder. It requires that I get much smaller, dye my only pair of short shorts black, and make a shirt with a cover type thing and ribbon… search “grell and his ipod” for a picture of it. So, as I said, last year I was sure of what I was going to be, just as I am this year. However, this year I only have one or two people who are with me and my boyfriend is not one of them, sadly. Lili-sama is going to be Undertaker and should she still care to by then, Tom will be Madame Red, and only for Otakon as Halloween is much too close for them to be worrying about anime costumes they actually have to worry about and search the hell out of for. I don’t care, Halloween is just candy and another chance to cosplay for me. I care much more about Otakon, and rather sadly I will be a Grell without a Sebastian to glomp. I can glomp my Undertaker, as that is also a canon pair, but I was hoping I could talk my Joker bf into coming as Sebby. But he is dead set against it dressing up as any anime character, and is hardly okay with coming dressed as Joker. Ah well, I won’t bug him about it. I was going to try persuading him, but it’s really not worth it. I doubt he’d go anyway. Paying $65 to go to a convention of anime freaks is not something he’d do. I’ll live! Besides, my Jokers best friend looks much more Sebby like anyway… very much like Sebastian in fact… hmm… Nope, also not worth it.

So, in conclusion: Otakon is amazing, Grell is awesome, and I can’t wait for it to be next year already! ^_^

Grell and Sebby= OTP!

This club is amazing! Love you Kate-sama!

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Lol, check that out! I have more clubs than some clubs have members!